let it fall.

6. crying (a natural human response to frustration, sadness, pain, or fear)

you always got mad when i would cry. you literally would get angry at me. it doesn't matter why i cried or if it was warranted but it's never been acceptable. you said it makes you feel guilty. even if i cried for no reason other than being hormonal. i tried to fight it. i'd try my hardest to hold it in but it seemed like your disdain for my tears only begged for them more. 

you would yell. you would leave. you would give me reasons to cry. i started viewing my cries as weakness. i hated myself for being unable to control my emotions. the hot flow slowly rolling down my face was just evidence of my defeat.  

i'm glad the last time i saw you i didn't cry. i just turned and walked away. and left you propped up against your car with tears running down your cheeks.